sm venice #18

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◼ bremerton 18b solo gtr.mp3 & nomad2_iso.mp3
this sketch as written was heavily influenced by my time in capitol hill following years of komo/king5 vampire types telling me the inner city was so fucking awful "now" and never to go there because people DIE there (:O) and do DRUGS too (:O) and me LISTENING TO THEM??.  nah i think i was just scared to go against anything my parents said for a long time and that worked out really well for those first 20 years didnt it!  anyway i ended up having some of the most vivid experiences of my entire life and meeting a bunch of people and trying a bunch of new food and ultimately seeing some incredible shows in morgan garrett b2b yhwh nailgun in late april and sleepytime gorilla museum the previous year but this was written smack in the middle, in march, after i had met up with some friends from canada and welcomed them to my home city.  i kinda just realized the life with which i was so familiar fundamentally fell short in pretty much every regard as compared to the one i wanted to be living and that uhhh, yeah, the depression stems from your living circumstances actually and it's not just normal to feel like that all the time.  just a lot of really revelatory experiences back to back to back.  like what am i doing?  i should be doing kickflips in a tank top and cargo jeans (with carabiner) in cal anderson right now but instead im just rotting in bed and i cant even ollie for what?  fucking stupid.  obviously this fits right in with the supermassive narrative around track 18, so i'm squeezing it into sm venice right here.  will have to alter lyrics ofc.

original title was "Do It for HMart"

◼ 18b 3.mp3
alterego placeholder vox:

goes to the city \ about once a year
confined by walls \ of others' fear
mom reads too much \ dad and his podcasts
sheltered themselves\ since decade last

taking a walk? \ why, that would be mad
cast lies they'd know \ weren't true if they had
that deep longing, yes \ it does make her sad
not yet strong enough \ to turn a good girl bad